Reincarnation and Past Lives

0:16 Hello, I'm Kimberly and I'm Laura today. We're talking about reincarnation and past lives the nature of the soul It's a big topic. I'm big topic. Although we always we always have big topics. I Actually love talking about this because I love stretching people's minds to believe more or deeper than they did today before Yeah, right and I think I think there's like a there's a seriousness that people kind of put on reincarnation and past lives And I think we need to we need to take it seriously But we also need to talk about how we don't need to know everything right and we're not meant to and we're not meant to do everything in every life right and I I have As we talked with this it'll it'll come up But I have a few things that seem to come up in pretty much every session with somebody that wants to know about past lives That some kind of misconceptions and things so we're gonna talk with that but I find people put too much energy on some parts of past lives too like so You know that can be an issue So it's good to talk these things through today. It'll give people a little bit better perspective well at the end of the day the biggest awareness for For me starting out on a spiritual path is that I was a spiritual being right living a temporary

1:39 Physical life right and The spiritual being has eternal life So the energy of the spiritual being goes on and on into other places other lives other roles and I that was a huge awareness for me even though I Kind of always believed in reincarnation. There always was a little piece of me But I remember being a teenager and having dreams that absolutely made no sense It doesn't matter how creative you are or imaginative like your imagination. How good it is You know for a 14 year old to dream that they were Some kind of sheep doctor in Scotland in the 1700s. I mean, where does that come from a 14 year old girl does not Think about those things So, you know, I was already being exposed to The idea that we reincarnate and we reincarnate over and over again And then as in this work you and I have seen things that have added to that Explanation and have added to that story So we wanted to talk to them talk to you about them and a lot of people don't understand that the soul is like

2:56 That complete soul, you know the complete soul of us is not all in this life, right? We can't hold it. No and and actually if we get real technical about all this There's multiple lives happening at once, which you know, I think I think when people start to believe in reincarnation That's one little section for them to think. Yeah, but then when they start going There's no way that I believe that I would choose this life I would not choose to be hurt over and over or to learn a lesson or to lose a child or To die myself at this age before I even felt like I got going but we do You know we do because we choose the hardest thing for the hardest thing that is Personalized for our soul experience, right?

3:41 So I we were just talking about this last night Yeah, and I was had my hands up in the air and I was saying why do I have to continue to do this, you know Why is the same thing playing over and over and it's the hardest possible thing that could happen to a person like me with my Personality, but that's exactly why you choose it Yeah, that's exactly why you choose it you choose it because it is the hardest possible thing For your soul and we don't want to waste time here I'm gonna tell you right now that your soul is like listen get in and get it done But the other side of it But the human self is like oh what you want me to do that. Yeah over and over again I don't think I want to do that. The human self is dragged kicking and screaming Experience but but here's the thing is we we don't waste time We do want our experience to count and time is not linear as we see it So in our physical reality as a human we have linear time So we know like one day comes after the next one week comes after the next one year One year, but it's not that the spirit world doesn't operate that way and they don't have a linear idea of time so The linear idea of time is like a human construct. It's our it's what keeps us sane

5:02 Basically, what keeps us, you know, it's still trying to make sense of our world and having some idea of what's happening But time actually it loops around it goes back and forth. It's up and down. It's in a note. There's no There's no linear sense to be made of Time in the complete consciousness So if we know that Then we know that our past lives can overlap. They can be your you could be You could be dreaming right now of another life Like sometimes I go to sleep and I'm in the other timeline I mean the other timeline that my energy is focused in and I'm dreaming as if I'm living it And I'm gonna tell you this timeline that I'm in like most of the time like 99% of the time I love this timeline compared to my other ones. Yeah Because my other ones seem very stressful, although I have had I've had a peak at a couple of my Timelines that are kind of nice, but that's not typically like I I it all the other timelines make me appreciate this one Mm-hmm. So I would agree with that because I think just in the last I think really since a lot has happened since we bought this house and it hasn't been four years yet

6:21 It will be in December, but I've really had a lot of time to work through and process a lot of Feelings emotions hurts Scarring from my life and from past lives, but I can actually see now Super clearly why I chose the family. I've chosen and why even why like There's no way I couldn't use the relationship with you because I had had memories of it far before I met You so when I met you and then that reality came to me and I was like, holy shit This is the person and even the recurring dreams that I had of Searching searching searching like some sci-fi movie that you know You're in this building and and at that point people just used computers even to Connect and we watched the show about it and I thought oh my gosh This is so weird because this is part of my reality from a past life Where I felt all these things that it's like the ego, you know, I remember coming through the birth canal And I remember thinking ha ha They're telling me that my memory is being wiped and we were just talking with this before the podcast about how like you walk Into a lake or a water reservoir and then you know, you're you're transported into a tunnel or a tube

7:42 And then into the body and we were talking about when the soul You know comes into the body in the in the mother's belly, but I can remember being very egoic in my thinking that Oh, yeah, they said I wasn't gonna remember, but I was like, oh, I'm gonna remember I'm gonna make sure I remember But you don't remember the way you think you do It's the memories of the knowings that you remember so knowing, you know I would read people in my family and I would go like I was always so Deep about the way I used to think and still do and you know that but I used to think holy Like this is crazy that I feel this way in my head and I couldn't tell anybody how I really felt and what I've really seen or Because in my world, they would have thought it was crazy, which later even when I did come out with this in 2006 They still thought I was crazy, but it had more Energy because I was living it and I was changing all these things about myself And the way I looked at things and and again I kept having those memories of thinking, you know, but we don't remember but we our soul remembers right Right, so I think that's what that's a good place We got to talk about that because yes The soul is many many parts like it's it's sort of like our soul can splinter

9:01 Right and can fragment itself into lives and even more in my experience even more than one life at a time So that's what we were talking about with kind of timelines and I guess we've said a lot already that people might not understand So the soul is like a representation of all of you. It's like the collective of you But we can't bring all those pieces into one life because it's too much energy for the physical body The physical body actually vibrates quite slowly That's why it's important to develop your connection to your higher self Because through meditation Through calming yourself through grounding through just deep listening you can connect to your higher self Which is the complete soul kind of body and a lot of times people want to talk to their they want to talk to their spirit guides They want to they want to know their spirit guides name your best spirit guide is your higher self, right?

9:58 And so when that's that's the God consciousness that you know We talk what we say God because it helps people understand what what we're referring to but Universal consciousness, you know is is the thing where that's that's a connection That's what that's where all the information is that's where all wisdom lies And that's where you want to be able to write in your soul Flows in I I view consciousness as this kind of river of energy And your soul flows within that with no resistance So why not try to contact your higher self within your soul for your guidance for what you need because your higher self Knows you the best your guides are there too And they're there for the things that maybe you haven't had experience with or maybe you need a little bit more help with But the the idea is that your higher self is actually your best spirit guide Mm-hmm and so developing that connection is important and knowing that there are parts of you That are in this life, but you don't have all the parts of you No, so that's how we can pull up when somebody has a past life reading I can pull up different past lives for them and we could talk about it and they can say but that did that Sounds like me, but sort of doesn't sound like me or I'm surprised by that life

11:16 And it's because it's a it's an aspect of them that they don't know in this life They don't understand that aspect of themselves in this life Because it's it happened in another life and they didn't pull it into this life They didn't have to once you learn the lessons from the life You don't have to pull forward all your qualities anymore because you don't need those lessons anymore So it's it's very much planned, you know, it's very much an orchestrated like blueprint and I think the idea Our soul has built in challenges I think that's important to know that you have core sort of core challenges Mm-hmm, and but you can't do them you can't work on all of them in one life but growth the growth Learning for me is like that's the part. I love the most and I know I'm a little bit different than most but I Actually love it. Mm-hmm. I love when the soul is being forced to learn and grow and evolve because That's what we come here for. Oh and listen life is quite amazing. Oh, you know Yeah, and it is all about your viewpoint and how you look at things your perspective But life is quite amazing as a soul as a collective energy of your soul

12:32 Having a life on earth is like a vacation, right? I'm gonna explain this because people think the opposite, right? but it's like having a vacation because if you are in an Infinite existence, so you know everything, okay? You have access to all the universal knowledge anything you'd ever need You don't have any Responsibilities, you don't have any challenges. You don't have anything that to do unless you choose to do things So think about how boring that would get mm-hmm like you're after year You're just like floating in the river of consciousness like You know it's like it's like being in the eternal lazy river That never stops that never stops don't you wouldn't you think like like I feel like coming into earth is Like a break from that mm-hmm It breaks up that eternal infinite existence that that that can be a weight as well So it's kind of a different way of thinking about it and I know people think oh my god Being here is a vacation. What's it like up there? Must be terrible, but it's it's what you make it life Life is always what you make it. Yeah, so you can have challenges and things But it's up to you to decide how long you want to stay in those

13:48 You know places that are uncomfortable because you can change that and you can enjoy this life in this world I mean, I just think you know being in a lazy river is nice For a little while like sitting in your tube, you know with your drink in your hand a kind of floating But if you had to float like that For an eternity, I think I think you'd want to break too Absolutely, and plus there's no growth in the floating like it souls come into lives because they crave expansion, you know they crave that Growth they they crave the learning that comes from that and you're left behind if you don't do it because the whole universe is Expanding so you don't want to be the one that's like left You know left at the back of the line right like come into a lot and come into your life and grow and expand and learn and Then you can follow along with everybody else and keep up, right?

14:45 Yeah, like that lazy river might speed up and you might be left behind or like being under a waterfalls forever Yeah, it's a nice massage, and it's beautiful and majestic, but You can only take so much of any one thing you get kind of you get kind of pruny. Yeah So I think one of the things for me is it really pulls up my heartstrings when I hear somebody say and I want I want you to talk about this obviously but from your perspective of the work you do because you know You're always talking to people's higher selves or past on loved ones or their guides and it's like When people say I'm never coming back here like that hurts me Yeah, and I think if they only knew that it's the perception of the things that they chose That are creating their the way they're feeling. Mm-hmm. You know because You know really the way I look at being alive and human in this life is There's a lot of drama Because people like get stuck in drama and I know even you and I lately We're we're realizing that when we're alone, you know It feels a certain way and it's easy and then when there's a lot of people around you've got all those energies around you

16:02 And if if their energies are more alike than ours, then the feeling of that is quite hard or What's the word like it hurts our physical being We feel like energy we feel excluded, you know, we don't feel different and we don't feel like we belong and yeah Sometimes like we've noticed like when we have, you know, big gatherings or we're with a lot of people You know, we've noticed that people don't really know what to make of us Yeah, you know like that we kind of like we say things and it kind of makes them think or they're shocked that we said it out loud Are you cray-cray? So, you know just just being in your true light and shining your true light Sometimes it's hard for other people because they've spent so much time hiding their light, you know So I find that I noticed that too like I'm like I I worked really hard on this light So I'm pretty proud of it. Yeah, so I'm gonna let it I'm letting let it go let it shine It's like a love bubble, but people are so self-conscious and worried about how they look and what people think of them And who's what are people gonna say? Oh my god, I can't I don't even have a headspace for any of that anymore, but we were there at one point in our life So we can appreciate the way that feels because there's nothing we talk about that we haven't experienced and much much more

17:22 But back to the question about when people say, oh, it's their last like their last life Like I'm not coming back here. Yeah, like what do you what do you think about all that when you hear that? It's such a pet peeve of mine And I think it's because they're implying that Number one, they've done everything they need to do, which I'm sorry. You're never done. No, that's why we keep coming back And the other thing that it implies is that their life has been terrible and they don't want to have another life Hmm, and that makes me sad because I think you know, yes Our lives can be quite difficult, but if we're always just focusing on the difficulties We don't see the good stuff as much and we we really need contrast We are in a reality and existence as humans that we need contrast Otherwise, we're never gonna see the good if everything was good You would be you would be depressed if everything was good all the time you would be sad You would be lonely. You would feel You would feel like there's no purpose And so we have to understand that when challenges come It's a blessing. Mm-hmm because it means that your soul knew that you could handle that

18:43 Mm-hmm, and you don't have to stay in the negative of it. You can come around the other side and you can say, okay This was a really hard thing that happened And I'm really sad about how things played out But I also know that if anything like this ever happened again I would know how to deal with it. I would deal with it better I'd be able to help other people with this. Mm-hmm. You you have to look at it like yeah It's okay to feel, you know angry or sad or whatever, but don't stay there Mm-hmm. Don't stay in that place because that's not what we're meant to do We're meant to look at our entire experience and see the balance and see why You know, maybe this maybe this thing happened like Often people, you know, if they lose a job They think it's the worst thing in the world and they've lost this job And oh my god, what are we gonna do? But they pick themselves up and they put their put the pieces back together They get another job and then a couple years down the road They learn that their position was gonna be eliminated anyway or the company was the company was all over the news because of You know corruption within the company and it would have looked bad on them for the rest of their career Or you know, there's where when we're diverted were protected We're being protected from something when life diverts us away from something we think is good for us

20:02 So there's all these likes kind of like I see it like there's like these little safeguards in place So if you have hard things in your life, you also have the good to balance it out Mm-hmm, and you have to keep diverting yourself back to the good stuff and understand that this life is beautiful This life is worth living. This life is a life that your soul planned for and chose and it's an intricate plan This isn't something that somebody just scribbles on a piece of paper and says well, this is what I'm gonna do in this life You know, that's it. It's intricate. It's like all the people that you have contract like contracts with soul contracts It's all the events that happen in your life. It's all the like the little achievements and choices and major life events having children and and like learning and growing and moving and relationships like it's Everything and you still have choice The choices are kind of like I like to call it like measured choice Because I mean everybody's got a little bit of chaos in their chart Everybody we have to but because the chaos it stirs us up and it helps us change So sometimes there's a little bit in there But a lot of the outcomes in your in your blueprint your soul blueprint are pre-ordained

21:20 Mm-hmm. So if we think about that as a soul You know all the lives you've had. Mm-hmm. You know all the knowledge that you have gained So does it make sense that you would plan a life that you're unprepared for? Hmm, right? You never would but you know you listening to you one of the things that is a pet peeve of mind And it's all about awareness right awareness is a key But a lot of people don't have it because they're staying away from Allowing themself into that place because you do feel very different Pardon me, but one of my pet peeves is how judgmental we are as humans and If we understood more about awareness and past lives and reincarnation, I don't believe we would have the judgment because In you know, we've been in we've had so many past lives. So you've been gay you've been straight You've been African-American you've been Native American you've been Korean you've been you know big small and an absolute jerk a Beautiful person like you've chose all these different experiences. So for me Like I see the way the world is and it's hurts me to see so much judgment and so much lack of

22:40 Awareness for other human beings. Yeah, you know, so we're getting to this time in in Life where I feel like everything is going so fast. It's like we need these experiences of growth and You know some of the hard knocks we have to get because we've got to slow it down We've got to pay attention, you know past lives and reincarnation These are amazing topics, but they're also there to help us see a little bit clearer than we did before Mm-hmm. So, you know, this is what the podcast is all about It's about creating awareness for our listeners that Something that we say might you know, create a little gap in their thinking that might help them stop and Reflect and then have an awareness that moves them forward in a little bit better way Exactly because this is This there is choices that are built into your plan Mm-hmm, and I I like to kind of emphasize this for people that are really struggling Because Struggle is something that you do have major events in your blueprint in your life plan that are built in there For struggle for challenge for expansion for growth to break you wide open

23:58 Hmm. If everything was good all the time, you would not be good Like you wouldn't you wouldn't grow and there's we watch this kids movie I wish I could remember the name of it, but years ago We watched this kids movie where all the people They had to leave earth because earth was not like a good place anymore So they had to leave and they're on like a huge space station But all the people there was so much technology that they didn't have to walk anymore They had these little hover chairs and they were eating there and they didn't have to eat food right they used to eat these like smoothies or something and They got huge and they lost all their muscle tone and they like it was a kids movie and it was kind of like remember Yeah, they were just a blob of energy, but literally you challenge is your gift, right challenge is your It's kind of like your your food Athletes, what's your challenge? You're constantly like building the body building resistance push learning how to push yourself to unbelievable limits It isn't that life and strength and resilience and resilience and that's why the challenge is your gift It really is and it depends on how you look at how you're gonna handle that challenge. Are you going to look at it and go?

25:16 Oh my god, that's too hard. I can't do that I don't want to do that. I'm gonna just take the easy route because I'm telling you right now If you keep choosing the easy choices, you're gonna end up in a life you don't like and yeah You're not gonna grow and growth is what we're here for right expansion So we we were talking about like how this happens like the reincarnation how this happens And it's true what you said about judgment too because I do feel like when you understand that we each have a sole plan regardless of how Complicated the sole plan might be or how hard it might be like there are There are souls that have done terrible things You know serial killers or people that are in prison for other terrible terrible things But that is a plan that their soul decided to choose So in our human Perspective and life we do need to create safety. So we have to have laws. We have to have prisons But the souls some of the I would say most Almost all of the souls that are in prison are there because their actual soul blueprint led them down that path Now I believe you can make choices to lessen kind of lessen the blow but there are souls that this they are living out their sole purpose and

26:36 Their sole purpose is creating challenge for other people and That is divine. Mm-hmm. That is actually from a divine frequency Those souls are actually doing what they came here to do. Mm-hmm. So there's human judgment But on the spiritual level, there's no judgment for that. Mm-hmm. So we think that We've been taught in the old way like that you die you go you go to the pearly gates and you're judged Mm-hmm. Are you gonna get to get into the pearly gates into heaven? Are you gonna go to hell and that's the old kind of way of thinking or that's that is a thinking that's out there that is a Philosophy, I guess but really what happens in the spirit world is they're so they're so evolved everything's just energy Mm-hmm that They realize that this soul that is their soul blueprint there's no judgment for them and in fact We might think of some terrible terrible things that have happened on earth and we think of those people that cause them and think oh They must be rotting in hell, you know And it doesn't work like that if that was their sole plan and they still made choices that they felt were right It's still on a divine frequency. Mm-hmm because everything is meant to play out exactly the way it does

27:53 There is intensity of things that can be avoided by choices but sometimes somebody does choose to come here to have an addiction and They've chose that addiction and it's overpowering their life But their sole purpose is to heal and to overcome that addiction most of the time Sometimes a soul chooses to actually leave this world by their by their like addiction or by their own You know hand and that can happen too, but there's no judgment. There is no judgment on the other side We have so much judgment in the human world. We don't need any on the other side. I agree. Yeah, I agree and It's funny to me. I I just lost my train of thought. Oh, it's okay. You know, we're talking right back out again That's you know, we're talking about like the that the process of birth right and it's weird because I Have encountered people that have a memory of their soul coming into the body Mm-hmm and how there's this like body of water That you walk into and it's supposed to make you forget all your past lives before you're born and everything that you know And so I heard this a few times and I got interested so I asked spirit to show me the process

29:13 Like what actually happens when a soul comes into the human body into the fetus into the womb So you were telling me about like I'm gonna remember everything They think I can't remember but I'm gonna remember gonna prove them wrong, right? So sounds like me. So the other reason actually I get interested in this was because when I was pregnant with my oldest They felt so connected to me I felt like I could talk to them and they would talk back and you know all that and then Went I think I think Val was like three. I want to say three or four And they came to me one day and they said mom. I remember being in your belly And of course like a three-year-old four-year-old you go. Oh, yeah, right That's so cute. Yeah, but then Val said I remember seeing light and I remember through the light were all these squiggly lines And I thought oh my god if light was shining on a belly Mm-hmm and a fetus was aware they would be looking at the light But seeing all the the veins and blood vessels and everything and I thought oh my god Maybe they did yeah, maybe they had an awareness in the womb

30:28 And so then I started talking to spirit and they showed me on the other side when this when a soul is getting ready to incarnate And I had an experience with this as well But you build your blueprint you build your soul blueprint and you build it with all the people That are in your soul group and you'd sign all the sacred contracts and you you go Ah, yeah, you're gonna you're gonna double-cross me. Okay, you're gonna abandon me. All right. I got you, you know Oh, you're gonna hurt me like deeply heartbreak. You're a brisk stomp on my heart Okay, so you sign up with all these people, right? Yeah, you get all your contracts in order And then it's approved by like a council. They look it over and they go well the usually this is what happens This is a really hard blueprint. Can you handle this? I don't know if you can you know And I think that's what they said to you I don't know you picked a lot of hard stuff But when the blueprint is approved and the timing is right I saw this beautiful forest and I saw my soul walking with a guide and You're kind of formless like it just looks like an energy kind of form but we were kind of moving through the forest and we came to the lake and My guide is like, okay You walk into the lake and the lake is supposed to make you forget everything that you know

31:47 And then you have to come into the life and then you have to re-remember everything and figure it all out again so I Walk I remember going into the water and then I remember seeing lights I'm underneath the water and I can see all these lights and then there's like this pulling motion Almost like you're getting pulled in to the yeah like pull down a tube and it happens so fast You don't like there's not a lot of awareness of that. It's just like this Magnetism this sucking pulling feeling and I remember hearing like this and you said it to the swish. Yeah, the whoosh Yeah, I remember hearing the whoosh and then all of a sudden it's it's the heartbeat You can hear your mother's heartbeat in the womb So you're still in water in the womb mm-hmm until the birth happens But it's so interesting because I've heard so many different theories on this where people say Oh, yeah, a soul doesn't enter a fetus's body You know if the fetus isn't gonna live and all that and in my experience I knew William soul was in his body mm-hmm when I was pregnant with him I knew his soul was there even when they told me that he was not gonna make it It was like he was communicating with me in the womb because I would talk to him and he'd kick me or eat

33:05 Scratch like You know just for so people know like there wasn't a lot of amniotic fluid left and that's I was losing him But he was still moving inside of me and he would like touch the inside of my womb Which should have just been touching but it felt like a scratch because there's no fluid There's no but every time I would talk to him he would he would bump me kick me something answer and answer me So I know his soul was there and then I got from kind of from my higher self for my guides They said that William had signed up for that experience mm-hmm So he had actually signed up to have just a fetal experience with me mm-hmm And that it was a blessing for me that that that soul chose me to have that experience with me And that I gave him his soul experience and his sole purpose what he asked for mm-hmm So it was like an honor mm-hmm Even though this is humanly such a terrible thing such a sad thing to lose a baby all that It was like an honor that I got to host this beautiful soul That chose me to give him his his sole purpose in that life So it really is not exactly the way that we think mm-hmm. You know, I think it's easy for us to say

34:23 You know, I lost a baby. It was terrible. It was traumatic It was sad took me a long time to get over it. All those things are true But it's also true that William's soul was a beautiful light that needed that soul experience And I signed up to give it to him and thank you for sharing something so deeply Vulnerable with us because I can tell I'm sitting across from you and I can see how it's affecting you and the other thing I want to say about about that is that You know, we've said this many times here William was 20 26 26 weeks in the womb and he didn't make it to breathe into this life So but how much he affected our life is there's a whole book being written on that So, you know, William is a little boy that you lost and he has visited us multiple times He's talked to me He's he's came in to help you heal from losing him with with a conversation that he's You know giving me things to tell you and say to you So there's so much that we've already said that to me just is Igniting me just I just can't believe how how deep the topic is and how far we can go with it but you know it just talking about how we are how we come into this life and how we

35:44 The birth canal actually starts in the lake and in the water and we pass through it into this tube And we're being you know pulled forward into this life Like you said magnetically being pulled because I feel that way But isn't it also amazing that I've never in my life worried about baptism But aren't we really truly baptized before we come in think about what you just explained Like what kind of if that's not baptism, I don't know what it is Because we're being cleansed in some sense before we enter this life Now I will and absolutely that is like that's it We are but we are cleansed naturally anyway, right? Like I think baptism The actual idea of it. It's a cleansing. It's an initiation But what's birth right birth is the same initiation cleansing. So Absolutely, that's such a beautiful thing and I think we have you and I we go through cleansing ceremonies Constantly where we're doing cedar bass or we're cleansing the property or we cleanse the house after You know, some people are around or when we're working we cleanse after and before we honor the energy of the space You know, so there's so much honoring. There's so much of that that we do naturally So and I think it's so important. Oh my gosh. Yeah, like thinking about it that way and I saw

37:04 I have seen souls enter in a different way and I can't say I understand everything but I did I have I've had an experience on the other side what some people would call it a near-death experience But I had it without the death, right? I didn't I didn't have to die to do it. Thankfully But I had the experience so I did see souls coming through a sort of like a gateway and I wondered You know, there must be different processes like for different souls and for different purposes and things like that so And we have like I have met people that remember like not walking into the lake They they just disobeyed and told her guide like no, I'm going to walk around because I need to remember I'm gonna go my way If you if you do remember everything it's actually not good for you Because being here in this physical vibration. It's so it's such a low lower vibration Then the like all the all-knowing kind of higher consciousness. Yeah So it's such a low vibration and you can't You can't do the things here that you can do there And it's very frustrating. You don't have all the same tools. You don't have you might have a knowing But like some sometimes Kim and I have knowings and we can talk to each other

38:20 But if we talk to somebody else, they think that we're we're out there, you know, like what's wrong with you You're so woo-woo, you know like or whatever So it's not actually good to know everything No, because it would change even think about your life if you could go back people say Oh, if I could go back, I do this differently. Oh to be 20 again, and I don't I don't feel that way No, I feel like I have always had a knowing And for me, it's like I I don't want to redo this I have lived through all these hard challenges that I set in place for myself before I came here And I absolutely trust what I chose. I've trusted it immensely in my lifetime, but I I do And lately I've been really pulling myself back from other people's energies because I go This isn't my drama. This isn't mine. And if I engage Too much it it becomes part of my energy Even if it's just in the moments And I don't like the way it feels so I'm very careful and I'm somebody who I actually Quite I love people. I love life But I also love being alone because that's where I can reflect Yeah, so one of your lessons probably is Learning how to discern where you want to invest your energy, right?

39:35 And we've we've had Maureen Webb on the show a few times She did Kim's Human Design chart and said she's an emotional generator, which makes complete sense, right? Because You have you generate energy you have so much energy around you and you it comes from you And so we've we've often said like We it's a good thing that Kim has mostly a happy disposition because uh, we have to keep her happy because otherwise it's really scary Big energy she she's she is she's like a power generating station, right? So so I had this I had this name for her You're not gonna like this Truth is okay. I used to call Kim the kulk Because she she had so much energy and all of a sudden and she would just like I would just all come out of her and I was like, whoa How dare that mower not work right and I literally would be like so stubborn that I I really have this belief that I can do anything and I I don't mean that from ego I just trust who I am I trust what I chose and I think that's the key So many people come here and they chose this life and then they go hell that ain't good That's not butterflies and rainbows and you know everything you think life should be because if

40:51 We didn't light light and darkness. We need good and bad. We need we need one to see how we can Respect the other. I think hardship creates this energy where you go. Holy shit. We can get through this I know just a couple nights ago. We were sitting out under the I joked and said I was gonna Um, you know, I really wanted to deck out my deck type thing. She pimp it out She did deck out the deck So we were sitting out there the other night and it was just the perfect environment It was it was dark. It was very calm All the lights were on the lights under the umbrella and You know, we were just having a beautiful conversation But one of the things that I had said was You know, how many times do we sit back and just Stay in the energy of how we appreciate and how gratitude You know affects us and that's what happened to me is we were walking around the property thinking You know, we built we built this house We built the energy around it. We built everything You know, we reinvented this place and we brought it back to life and just sitting in awareness and saying Look at us two women. We did this and it's it's so empowering to realize that When you learn to trust what you came here for and who you are

42:09 It's not about all the things that you know, uh, we're hard. It's about how you walk through them You know, there's there's a saying about you know, we we get stuck on the mountain in front of us But we don't realize how many we've climbed behind us And I think that's so important to realize what you've come through You know and sometimes we don't do all things Like the whole thing about the caulk is that I'm a very big energy person and I love and I have deep deep feelings I'm very passionate about everything. I love So I do I get to this place where I am now in awareness of the whole process of when that happens and it's You know, I expect a lot of myself Um, nobody else has to worry about being hard on me. What I expect of myself on a soul level Is very very big Well, listen, I knew what I was getting into when I got when I when I got with you because Your energy right away when I met you your energy was so big it was like It it just fills up a room all on its own and even bigger than that So of course if you're passionate about something you're gonna have big investment big energy big output in that So to me, I never looked at these things as like a bad thing

43:25 I just I had to learn that about your personality that that was happening sometimes because you were holding in All your energy and then something would happen and it would come out and you couldn't help it And so I understood it because I You are just like you are like a power plant. You're like generating energy. Where does it go? It has to go somewhere You know, so it wasn't like a bad thing. It was just um It was an observation for me like an expression of how you have to release sometimes so And I didn't we all have to release and I don't take that as a negative because honestly I look at the hulk like, you know, they're this big green energy and green energy to me is love But it's like it doesn't matter how much you love sometime in life. It doesn't mean you're always going to get it back And there's moments where You know, we're going through hard things and we can't articulate in the moment where that where it's coming from So it takes us time. So I always thought it was kind of cute that you called me the kulk because you know Hulk kulk smash. Yeah Because I'm also the type of person that when I want something I am so driven and I will absolutely do it and And this house is a representation of that. I I don't do anything till I know in my head

44:42 I can do it a hundred percent And I will go do all the other jobs that I know I can do But I will wait to do the job that I'm not a hundred percent sure of and I don't give it any energy Like I give it energy in the moments, but then I put it away It's not I actually don't have as many thoughts in my head as people think I would Because of the type of person I am but I don't have thoughts running through my head all time My head's actually pretty quiet most of the time And that hasn't always been the case when I was younger But I look at myself now and say I'm a 58 year old woman Who is absolutely like In the prime of my life in a way because I've learned so much from spirit And I've learned so much from being with you because we're so much alike But just enough different that we push each other and challenge each other to be better Isn't that what you want though? You want to be with somebody who brings out the best in you?

45:39 Yeah, and you can say whatever you want when when you're in a space where you know People aren't already judging you before you even gets to like the words out of your mouth You know and that that's from my experience in my past life in in this life But in the I always call we say our past life means with our older Partner or with our young life as as a child. So I feel like either we say we're on our second life But it's in this life. It's in this life. Yeah, yeah, but there were so many things that I felt like I was on edge about because people I was just very different in all of my environments until I met you and then when I met you it was like Oh, you believe in reincarnation you believe in that But then even deeper there was past lives that I've seen long before I met you And there was things that happened to me long before I met you but when I met you physically in person It was like everything in me like all the bells and whistles and everything were going off and I had no awareness of What the hell was happening?

46:38 Except for the fact that I knew you on a deep deep level and that I loved you Right from the second I met you but I didn't even understand how I loved you Are you like my soul sister at the time? You know and then obviously it it it had a life of its own So here we are and we've been together for almost 11 years. So Which feels like so much more, you know because there are all those past lives that when we finally got together The memories of them started coming back You know, and I think it's very ironic that even in this life this house is red You know, it's Navajo red because we had a past life together where both of us remembered a red house with brick And wrap around for like veranda kind of thing. Yeah, and it was ranch house And it was very much on like property acreage with bulls and steers and you know all that So we remember we remembered that life together and it was interesting because I started to have those dreams before I met him Yeah, so I started to have dreams of that life and who I was and who I was with and what was happening And I had I had multiple dreams. It was almost like when we were talking about at the beginning of the podcast about Experiencing another timeline It sort of felt like that because I kept having dream after dream and then when I met him

47:57 And we started to get to know each other It was sort of like The the memories of the experiences came back So it wasn't that I had the dreams again the dreams were still like in my memory But it was like the feeling that I had in the dream I started to have in my life with you in my waking life So I knew that that feeling meant that That deep love that I had in that life That deep deep love started happening in my real life and I started to feel you From that life and it was so weird because That life you were a man but I Started feeling like Even the memories in the past lives started to shift a little bit So like it was almost like I was reliving it being with you in this life Um, but we both that life was very like the dreams when they began for me They were very detailed. It was like I was living in a movie. It was very vivid I could tell you what the town looked like. I could tell you because I was a smoker in that life So I could tell you what it felt like to smoke cigarettes Like I could tell you all the people in my life at that time that were helpful that weren't helpful

49:18 You know, I could tell you what happened to me after like I got to leave the town and I got to go with you And like all the things that happened after that like and I it's a long story I won't get deep into it, but I had a lot of learning in that life And a lot of lessons and you You just loved me even though I was like flawed Oh, you just loved me. So that feeling came back in this life And this feeling like I finally connected with the person that Just knew me and I didn't have to explain Well, I think the beauty of that for me now in the awareness I'm in that at my age is that You know, our life doesn't have to be so complicated And we can move through things a lot faster with new awareness And this is the end of part one reincarnation and past lives Please tune in next week for part two as we continue to explore this topic In depth, but but it's great lots of information. See you next week If you're interested in contacting Kim for Soul Awakening Coaching Please contact her at mksoulcoaching.com

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